I missed this year’s Bloggers Bash. And I’m not tending to this blog as often as I want. And my Twitter feed is silently gathering dust. BUT. I’m getting stuff done. My WIP really is progressing and I’ve even set a realistic deadline for my 2nd draft.
Mark your calendars! The Wind Knows Everything (the page has been updated, you know you want to click) will be ready for YOU, beloved beta-reader, to read from August 13 2016. I am not afraid to state this loud and clear because I am confident I will have a “finished” product by then. I am posting this on June 12 which means I have two months. Whoa. Something just swelled inside my chest at the thought of a “finished” novel.
I keep putting “finished” in quotes because I am not naive and neither are you. We all know there will be a few more drafts until I can call this finished with no quotes. But I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and boy is it looking pretty bright!
I have been working on this WIP for, I don’t even know how long anymore. Is it two years? Three years? It sounds absurd, even I can’t believe how slow I’ve been but when I sat to write again, and when I noticed how much my writing has improved since I wrote my very first chapter, years ago, I felt proud. Because writing is rewriting. Writing is changing. Writing is everything.
I only realised this a month ago. I have been so conflicted between my novel and my struggling career as an architect that I would feel constant guilt when I focused on one and not the other. But ever since I decided I didn’t have to chose, I chose. Quite the paradox, I know. Once the pressure of choosing was lifted, the choice was easy to make. It had been staring at me all along.
How do you chose? You ask yourself: “When are you truly happy?” And when your answer is “When I write”, you know you’ve hit the jackpot. When I write, I feel happy, excited, empowered, lucky, fulfilled and sometimes, even talented, all things I could rarely say about myself when I was an architect. Maybe I never got there, maybe had they hired me, things would’ve turned out differently but the real change is: I no longer care about what ifs. I am happy with my choice and I feel lighter, happier, more focused, less guilty.
Ever heard of the NYU Creative Writing Program? One of the most distinguished programs in the US, they only accept 20-30 applicants out of 400-500. They offer fellowships to all incoming students, from half-tuition to full tuition remission. The 2017 program starts in September 2017. The deadline is December 17, 2016. Can you guess what I’m trying to say?
You must give everything to make your life as beautiful as the dreams that dance in your imagination, Roman Payne.